No matter what time it is, where I am, or what I’m doing. I’d drop whatever I’m doing just to have a conversation with you. Why? Simply because I love talking to you. I love how we talk about the most random topics. I love how you know how to keep a conversation going. I love how we lose track of time. A simple text or phone call from you can make me smile throughout the whole day. I know it sounds rather silly, but it’s true. You’re on my mind all the time.
…its kind of our night time ritual. when we first started dating, i was the insomniac in the relationship—oh how things have changed.
now jason is the one constantly pulling all nighters to finish his graphic design projects. most nights we skype and he shares his screen with me. then i usually keep him company for as long as i can before eventually knocking out…its definitely one thing im gonna miss now that the semester is finally over
it feels good to not be mad anymore. hating and holding a grudge against someone is too exhausting. no amount of advice from anyone helped ease my anger, but here’s what finally got through to me. jason, this amazing boyfriend of mine [lol i hope youre happy now -__-] gave me a book…told me i might learn something from it. and basically…i learned the biggest, and most liberating lesson of all:
"holding anger is a poison. it eats you from inside. we think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. but hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves."
and that was that. its like he knew exactly what to say without saying anything at all (:
the things people do to save face. they would rather throw others into the fire than make themselves look bad. pathetic isnt it? admit to your faults. dont hide by constantly playing the victim card. it only makes you look like a jackass. you ask for forgiveness, but your actions speak otherwise.
Its amazing how a single thought, a single realization, can change your entire perspective on someone. How you can care about them so much, that you want the world for them and the next second not be bothered if you never talk to or see them again. Its amazing the things you see when you finally learn to open your eyes.